{turquoise and blue lace}

Well. . .Alexi, Jack, Ray, David, Ben, Xavier and the boys from The National and I are all having a wonderful time with some red wine. These are men after my own heart. They definitely move me, every time, and I think these nights are some of my favorite. I still haven't done anything to organize myself for moving though, which is problematic, but I keep getting distracted. All I know is that the bathroom might be turquoise, or blue lace (I think that's what its called).

So anyway, since I can't get enough of Alexi, here is my favorite of the bunch. . .

and this is also pretty exquisite if I may say so. . .

{thank you Le Love}

This is an awkward post. But in the spirit of being a sap, I'm going to share this poem I wrote, which I'm feeling bashful about for sure. Its been years since something flowed this easily though so here goes. . .

Over my dry chianti
I admit
I sort of fear what you're already opening in me.

This poem
could be proof.

And those moments I had to close my eyes
to absorb the impact
could be proof of blooming too.

birthday cheese

On his day of birth, I want to acknowledge my dear friend Nate. . .

who constantly inspires me. . .taught me how to drink beer and appreciate good food. . .can always cheer me up when I need it. . .can always make me cry when I need to and can't. . .always stands for my greatness even when I don't. . .is always there for the people he loves. . .practically invented the ellipsis. . .lives his life with more integrity than most of us could ever hope for. . .
and is one of the funniest mother fuckers I've ever known.

{i heart you buddy}
Happy Birthday!

This one's for you. . .

(you asked for it!)

*my love, like snow falls*

We'll start with songs this time, because well, this is a random post and these songs so perfectly encompass my mood right now. . .

Oh CocoRosie, I adore you.

I'd like to make a film someday, and I think all the music would have to be
Explosions In The Sky. . .

(Sigh)

Alright. So 2009 has been a roller coaster so far. Lots of ups and lots of downs. I never know what each day will bring, and more often than not, when one day is very drab the next is exciting and inspiring. Those inspiring days are usually a result of me shedding some layers of myself and feeling the weight lift. Its this teetering balance of peeling back and hanging on, contracting and expanding. I think I'm growing out of a lot too. Old love, old debt, old stories, old routines and patterns. They all feel like what we used to call "paint leave-ins" in my AP Art class. . .which were the accumulation of the built up oil paint we would scrape off our palettes and onto a poster board we had hanging on the wall. The colors would all blend together in a rainbow formation, creating a collective collaboration of everyone's leftovers. This was the only one I kept. . .

"A happy thought that,
for not being born
is the only tragedy
that we can imagine
but need never fear."

-Alden Nowlan

I guess that's kind of abstract, but hey, I said this would be random. So anyway. . .I guess for now I'll just roll with it. There's much to be excited about, even just in the next week!

What else? Oh, if you read this blog in a Reader then you probably haven't seen the new header! Its thanks to the AMAZING Rhonna Farrer and pretty exciting if I may say so. I bought a commercial pack of some of her stuff and updated my website too, although I'm still not sure if it communicates the right thing. There's some problems with it loading too slowly too. I think that might be a President's day off sort of project.

Its time for bed.
Today I'm grateful for my job, good music, good wine, poetry, memories, and the distinctions that guide my life.

*XOXO*

studio, i heart you

The beauty of making a responsible choice is that you get to be cautious first, and then get ridiculously excited later instead of vice versa.

I'm on my way to fill out the application for the cutest little studio ever. And I can hardly stand to have to wait a month to live there. But until then, I'm going to feel free to participate in self indulgent dreaming. . .

{I definitely need polka dot sheets}

{and a cuckoo clock}

{either one will do}

Now, the question is of wall colors! Purple? Grey? A blue bathroom?

Okay I'm done for now.

hello lover

I just finished watching Vicky Cristina Barcelona and all I can is. . .

1) Now I want to add Spain to the fall itinerary
2) Scarlett Johansson + Penelope Cruz is way too much beauty for one movie
3) I'm really bummed I already finished the Rosenblum
4) Thanks to Javier Bardem, I now have a face for the dream man that's been living inside my head
5) I'm such a nerd

ModCloth

I officially have a new love. This is just a sampling of the reasons why. . .

(sigh)